Tuesday, December 3, 2013

"I've Got This.." Remember.. ;)

  I've been so gently nudged by a dear friend to share an experience that is  unique and beautiful to me.  My son and I are exactly twenty years apart and God blessed me with him in so many ways. But of these blessings came one of my most life changing, and that is my son led me to God. I was like so many, ignorant and I say that truthfully and not in a critical nature. We tend to roam thru our daily lives searching for something to complete us if only for a few seconds or at life in general. Often times totally ignorant of just how real God is, and most importantly just how much He love us. We tend to get so caught up in things of this world that either personify or cripple us. Our very existence in this world is amazingly just looked over everyday as simple and not really that astounding. Simply put "Life" is such a gift, and even thru all of it's difficulties can be so very beautiful if we learn to see with His eyes and most important "Trust in Him."

  My son, thru a few extensive maxo facial  procedures which derived from an abscess, learned of an aggressive tumor that is consuming the jawbone. He was informed by Physicians that X-Rays seem that although it is large it's probably benign.  However in our minds, there still lies the possibility of bone cancer, simply from the term "aggressive tumor" He will be having surgery soon to remove  it, so he is worried, and wow was I as well. In fact I became so worried that I became depressed and not really myself. Not feeling sociable enough to  talk with friends, only a choice couple did I actually confide in.  I just started getting so sad and down in the dumps. I remember actually praying and saying God I don't feel like being nice today, certainly not nice enough to talk to anyone about this..but I really wish I had someone to talk to, because it may turn out to be nothing but I'm really scared, and need some strength to think positive.

  My husband had a couple who were here looking over an old truck he had listed in the classifieds.
They had decided to buy it. I stepped out on the front porch and greeted them, she turned to me kind of antsy to ask to use the restroom. Of course, come on in..I said. As she made her way in I did as most wives do "Please excuse the house...yada yada.. I just told her " I've been a lil down and not felt like tidying up lately." She turned to me with these unexplainable consoling eyes, and says "What?..What's wrong?"  I said "Oh just a lil news about my boy, you know the big sweet guy out there that was chatting with you guys.. just kind of worried is all." She stopped and says to me and I quote.." Let me tell you a little bit about God.." and with that she removed her sporty ball cap and long haired straight wig revealing her head with no hair. She looked up at me and to my surprise had the most beautiful smile. She says "Stage four, Breast Cancer.." She said "I went thru 3 rounds of Chemo and was supposed to go thru a fourth when the doc couldn't find the tumor, no sign of it at all. She said "No it wasn't the chemo, it was God that got me thru all of that. She said I'm cured with no sign of it.  She says "You know God places people in our paths for a reason, and I was supposed to meet you, this is no accident. 

 This woman was absolutely electric with love for God and such a real zest for life that was simply contagious. Her laughter and smiling was pure happiness so much so that here I was in my Living Room hugging this complete stranger and laughing like we were cousins at a big family reunion. We talked and realized we had so much in common with our lives. We exchanged cell numbers and thus a beautiful friendship began. She told me how in her struggle thru cancer there were times where she was losing faith in God and such and how she was reminded "To trust in Him" and she reestablished that notion to me "Just simply trust Him."  We were hugging goodbye when our significant others came in and was scratching their head like "What?!"

 We watched as they drove away in their recent purchase. I just stood on the porch waving and smiling with the same happiness that thru God was left from her now in me.This giddy happiness that lasted all night.. I felt it, that chain of love that is so contagious..that absolute love for life and a peace within that is only capable thru our loving and so there for us Father. No matter what we face in life..He is there..We just need to remember that although we get weak and fall away at times. We're human.. but Trust in what He says..
                                          "I will never leave you nor forsake you."